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Green Room - Week 23 - Day 4

Last night was the middle school awards ceremony where my bonus daughter received their ribbon for Principal's Honor Roll.

Tonight is the Induction Ceremony to the National Junior Honor Society.

Next week is the last orchestra concert of the year, where I'm sure it will be announced who is in next year's exclusive "Chamber" (she made it in).

It's amazing how accomplished she is and just as funny to think back at just how "anti-accomplishment" I was. Maybe some of it was being lazy, some of it was "not wanting to be one of THEM" (whoever the "them" was at the time") and, looking back, a lot of it was that I didn't want to give my step father any more excuses to hate me. His kids didn't excel at anything, and if I could avoid putting myself out there in any way, I didn't risk pissing him off more than I did just by existing.

My biggest middle school accomplishments include failing 8th grade because I spent more time playing D&D in the back of the room with my friends than concentrating on class and convincing everyone (including teachers) to play along that I had an invisible friend, who also had an invisible dog. (Why? I have no idea. Even then, it just seemed funny, so I went with it.)

Oh, and getting into fights. I got in more fights in middle school than any other time in my life.

Even in high school - my biggest accomplishments were forming a underground zine and in my senior year the English department made up an award to give me, and gave the official one to whipchick! :D (I'd completely forgotten about that until last night when I was waiting for the awards to be called and went "Oh yeah, that was pretty funny")

Of course, that path led me here - to spend a decade torturing writers and forcing them down paths they normally might not tread. So maybe *that's* my accomplishment! :)

What have YOU accomplished? (Other than linking your entries to http://therealljidol.livejournal.com/932438.html )


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May. 20th, 2016 02:52 pm (UTC)

Congratulations to bonus daughter!

Ah, the good old days. I was one of my high schools two literacy representatives. It mainly involved me trying to found and run a creative writing club which was a disaster.

Edited at 2016-05-20 02:55 pm (UTC)
May. 21st, 2016 12:38 am (UTC)
You're dead to me.

(hands over cookies)
May. 21st, 2016 07:29 am (UTC)

Thank you *Shoves cookies into mouth*
May. 20th, 2016 05:04 pm (UTC)
It's funny. Most of what I've accomplished in terms of awards and recognitions Stent things i set out to do. For example, right now my bands' second album is a finalist for "best comedy album" at our state music Awards. I never set out to make one album much less two and, furthermore, think it's ludicrous that we were nominated at all.

But I've often gotten my best reviews for shows that weren't my primary focus or very positive work evaluations for things that weren't really intended as major contributions. Maybe i have standards for myself that are just higher than those of evaluators. I don't think I've deserved nearly any of the recognition I've received.

The two awards I do feel like I earned were both service awards for volunteering at non-profits. I really did put in a ton of time at those places and i appreciated that they recognized me along with my fellow volunteers.

This was hard to write.
May. 20th, 2016 06:06 pm (UTC)
It's tough to assess one's own work, and tougher still to accept accolades for things that weren't the ones you strove for.
May. 20th, 2016 06:07 pm (UTC)
As I recall, your zine also gave out a series of unofficial awards; I was voted 'most un-American.'
May. 20th, 2016 09:13 pm (UTC)
That sounds like an award I would give you. :)
May. 20th, 2016 07:42 pm (UTC)
I joke that I peaked in high school, so...not going to bother listing anything here (I don't think any of it counts, anyway! :) ).

I'm most of the way through a PhD. That counts for something, right?

Also, I can bake really good bread.
May. 20th, 2016 08:32 pm (UTC)
I feel like every project I finish - whether it's a story or a blanket or just doing the damn dishes and stopping entropy from taking its toll for a little while - is an accomplishment. I'm big on recognizing all those things. They all count! But then, I'm the kind of person who puts stuff on a to-do list just so I can cross it off and feel like I Officially Got Stuff Done. It's a bit of mental sleight of hand to distract the demons living in my brain who are so fond of telling me I don't get anything done and oh woe I never shall get anything done and liiiiife let me tell you about life and how you are faaaaailing at it. To-do lists work wonders against those sorts of brain shenanigans. SO MANY CHECKMARKS CAN'T BE WRONG! Take that!
May. 20th, 2016 09:38 pm (UTC)
My bullet journal is one of those things I'd grab in a fire. I don't know how folks get through their days without lists!
May. 20th, 2016 09:41 pm (UTC)
To keep it overly simplistic....high school achievements for those of us who hung out with the misfits. (The imaginary friend and dog....is intriguing, G.)

I painted a challenging piece as my senior project and was passed over for the senior art show. Even though I had been accepted into the College of Fine Arts & Crafts, my art teacher had a favourite and it wasn't me. So, she was won ALL THE AWARDS and SCHOLARSHIPS and I won $20 betting my sister that I would trip on purpose while walking across the stage. I did enter the painting in the County fair and took Best of Show..."favourite" pursued a business degree.

Me, bitter?
May. 21st, 2016 03:19 am (UTC)
I look at the list and think, "Well, it's a good start." There's always something else to do or try.
May. 21st, 2016 09:45 am (UTC)
I've been told I never give myself enough credit for anything because, for whatever reason, whatever I accomplish is NEVER enough. Intellectually I know that's my brain chemistry talking. OTOH it excels at making me doubt myself.
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