clauderainsrm (clauderainsrm) wrote in therealljidol,

Green Room - Week 13 - Day 4

I can't sleep.

I have been trying for a couple hours now, but I just can't manage it. Which isn't good. I need to be up at 4:45am tomorrow to get to work.

My sister is getting married this weekend to the woman she loves.

My Father and his wife (my Step-Mom) won't be there. They are extremely conservative Christians and have stated that their new daughter-in-law will not be welcomed in their home.

They also told my brother that if he ever meets someone that his husband would not be welcomed either.

Anyone following the home game of my story knows that I haven't had much to do with this side of my family for, well, forever. I only started forming relationships with them over the last couple of years.

I'm about to torpedo that budding relationship with my Father, because it's the right thing to do, and (mostly) because my siblings asked me to do it.

Before - they had said they were fighting their own battles and they weren't ready for other people to jump in.

Now that they have both came out, and been rejected, it's a different story. I don't know what my other siblings will be doing. If they will be contacting the people who raised them and letting them know how they feel.

But I need to harness some of that courage that my younger siblings have shown and actually stand up for what I believe in/stand up for the people that even though I wasn't raised with them, they are my family and I love the people they have become.

I know there is a huge backlash against "coming out as an ally", because it's *not about* our stories. It's about the stories of Gay, Lesbian, Bi, Transgender and anyone else I might be forgetting at after midnight when I should be asleep, men, women and anyone on the gender spectrum. They are the focus, and they should be, when we are talking about their struggles in society.

It's not about me. But since this is my space to rant about things - this part *is* about me. ;)

Once I write something up, I'm going to want to have someone beta-read it for me. So if you're up for that, let me know.

Also - I've read a lot of inspiring stories over the years, of people standing up for who they are, and who the people they love are. Thank you for that. I hope that I will be able to prove worthy to that example you have set.


and because this is still Idol: The results of Second Chance are in: and your entries are due tomorrow:
Tags: day 04, friends and rivals, green room, week 13
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