Back before I even knew "LJ drama", there were some frustrating times when I felt like I should just chuck it all and walk away. Once Season 4 hit, and I was in the darkest points of Idol, and personal, history I could look back and laugh. But at the time, it was serious.
There was one thing that came up - a running "joke" between myself and my assistant about what I would do if it ever came to just announcing "it's over" and walking away mid-season. This "joke" has stayed consistent for years.
I used the quotes, because it wasn't entirely a joke. ;)
The line was "beldar wins". Which was short-hand for saying that he was a solid writer and a solid human being that absolutely everyone would be happy to see win. No one would give me a problem if beldar were to win!
He's beldarzfixon these days, but I still can't think of anyone who wouldn't be happy to see him do well. He's still an awesome guy - and now, at long last, he has 100 Weeks in Idol under his belt!