The thing is, in previous years, I was doing exactly that for most of our breaks. I knew that I had to give people the time off, due to their schedules, but knowing that I wouldn't be doing much of anything. I did get quite a bit of catching up on television in though. Which wasn't the worst possible thing.
This year is different. I have one of those "lives" people have been talking about! It's weird! :)
So, I know from experience, that this isn't the easiest time of year for everyone. Especially when there so many people in a much better place. Who don't always seem to grasp that not everyone doesn't have the tough choices of where to go and which expensive gift to get their SO! But you know what - it's good that they don't understand that. I'm sure the people who do, would trade that understanding in a heart beat. Because there is always something out there, someone out there, that is in such a worse situation. Regardless of how bad it seems at the time.
That's not always easy to remember. Because all we have is the sum of our own experiences. Experiences that can make "what would have happened if" and "where I should be in life" into things that crush you underneath their weight.
Finding that one good thing, that spark of something that makes you happy - something that makes "Christmas" or any other day, special. That's the trick. Can you do it? I know there were certainly days when I couldn't.
There are still days when I find it extremely difficult, and certainly times when I fall short of that goal. But try. There's something good going on in your life. Right now. Regardless of how it may seem.
Or I'll kick you like the emo damn foreigner hippy that you are! :)