My Facebook Memories reminded me that I posted this in 2012. Looking at now serves as a reminder that "everything you have ever wanted" is a goal post that tends to shift with time - and the nature of perspective in general.
The amount of time that has passed since I moved in with Cynthia is the same amount that I was single and living over the ice cream shop. Which doesn't seem possible. So much changed in that period, so much happened. But small changes happen over time as well, shifting perspectives and changing your life. Those big moments stand out, but the lasting change tends to come when you aren't looking for it.
Not to reveal too much about what's up my sleeve, but I think that's true of people's time in Idol as well - there's the big moments that draw in your attention, the drama of the eliminations that keeps it, but until you step back, you don't tend to notice just how far you've come. You don't notice the progress in your own writing that's happened from sheer repetition and keeping to a schedule. You don't fully appreciate the relationships you've formed.
When I get depressed or discouraged, I try to take that step back and assess. Not just with Idol, but life in general. Because sometimes the "everything you want" of the moment pales in comparison to what you've been able to achieve when you weren't really paying attention to the momentum.
If you are a current contestant - remember to get your votes in!