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Green Room - Week 25 - Day 6

That "Season 8 was almost 6 years ago" fact has done more of a number on my head than crossing the 10th anniversary for Idol did! It seems like it wasn't that long ago. But I guess a lot of stuff did happen in the meantime. I'm living a completely different life than I was when Season 7 started. Season 8 was during that transition of who I was, to who I am in the process of becoming.

Which got me thinking about what was in my Inbox yesterday. It was a notice from Disney that they are lifting the blackout dates a couple weeks early so that people have more time to go say goodbye to The Universe of Energy at Epcot and The Great Movie Ride at Hollywood Studios. The former has barely been open in the last couple of years due to technical issues (and fewer riders) and the latter is victim to the rest of the changes happening at that park. The news was delivered along with links to "all the exciting changes" coming to the parks - there is going to be a *lot* of construction happening between now and 2021, getting the parks ready to celebrate the 50th anniversary of Walt Disney World in Orlando.

That really made me pause.

Because the Magic Kingdom opened up a few days after I was born.

They are gearing up for our 50th birthday.

There are fewer years between now and then than there were between Season 8 and now.

What am I gearing up to do?

A 50-year old white cis-male running a writing contest in an environment that frequently these days just wants old white cis-men to shut the hell up. ;) (Which I'll admit, scares the hell out of me because, as a stutterer - online is the only place where I can actually SPEAK without difficulty. Well, other than the whole being vague and rambling thing... :D But I digress.)

What is that going to look like? Is that even a possibility?

Will LJ collapse completely before then? Right now, I'm thinking no. I don't think it's going to *grow* much, but I think it's a slow trickle out from this point over the next couple of years, barring the creation of a new social media site that can replicate what it does well. (obviously Dreamwidth is out there, but it's never managed to actually capture that community spirit LJ had. Probably because it came when Facebook was rising on the scene)

What is my life going to look like? Celena will be going into high school this year - which means in 4 years, she's off to college. I thought I wouldn't have the time once I moved - and I *do* have significantly less time. But I also have found a way to get things done, and while a high profile crazy game would probably knock me over and take my cane at this point... which is crazy, because that's exactly what I have on my schedule, something with a LOT of potential that *could* take off... a group of friends and new friends coming together to play (like this Season) I could definitely handle without too much trouble.

Heck, what is my health going to look like? Will I have any my original teeth left? (at this rate, maybe not! ;) )

Will I manage to lose the weight I need to lose?

What am I going to do with my time other than mark it?

What are you doing with yours?

/rambling about approaching death. ;)

Go read some entries and vote for your favorites: http://therealljidol.livejournal.com/1034591.html THAT'S something useful you can do!


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Jul. 27th, 2017 02:19 pm (UTC)
Good Morning! Heavy stuff to ponder there...

My reality the last couple of years has been being keenly aware of my own mortality (I swear, it's *A Thing* once you hit 50 and realize that you've already lived more than half your life). I'm closer to 60 than I am to 50. I have 9 working years left before the minimum retirement age if my body doesn't give out sooner. I'm old enough to be almost everyone's mother at work, or in some cases, grandmother :BOGGLE: :BOGGLE: :BOGGLE:

I find Idol seasons tend to meld together as time goes on, LOL. It also goes to show how much of an effect social media has had in those intervening years between Season 8 and now.

I've got my first post-op checkup this afternoon. Given my instability with crutches in general (I've stumbled on FrankFoot who knows how many times plus I have issues galumphing with a heavy cast), I'm sort of terrified that I've done something that shouldn't have happened. I'm also expecting a lecture on "bed rest MEANS bed rest". No wonder why I'm labeled noncompliant.

Edited at 2017-07-27 02:20 pm (UTC)
Jul. 27th, 2017 02:22 pm (UTC)
As you get closer to death, with Celena leaving you and your teeth rotting out, you can think of this on your deathbed. Through Idol, you have touched hundreds of lives over the years, and given people a platform to experiment with writing that they perhaps would never have tried and brought people closer together who would not otherwise have met, as well as produced more than a few Published Writers. Not a bad legacy for someone born the same time as Disney World.
Jul. 27th, 2017 02:38 pm (UTC)
It is a sobering and fascinating shift...when we begin to count backwards. Don't dwell, don't rush it, and enjoy life now. Which does mean getting your physical self in order to weather the storms of the NEXT 50 years. Dentists are currently pushing implants, research partial dental plates. Being fit is good, but you need a bit of extra weight going into later life just in case...your body needs the reserves. If you can afford it, one month of NutriSystem can kickstart a weight loss program. Just ask Marie.

As you're attesting, time freakin' FLIES and we want to enjoy the present but also create memories and relationships, set and reach goals, that will make a difference to our peace of mind down the long road.

YOU, G, have made a serious impact on the lives of thousands of writers. That's quite the accomplishment in these times when attention spans envy the lives of houseflies.

I am here for the duration...but I sure would love to get onboard early for the next amazing writing platform. I wish I knew what it was!!!
Jul. 27th, 2017 04:05 pm (UTC)
Sure Gary, pick today to get all philosophical about life and the future. We received some news from J's family yesterday, not even really news yet just the possibility that something's coming. The very worst case scenario outcome would change our lives completely. Now, is that going to happen? Probably not, but it's disconcerting to think about, that the plans we have could all be changed by something we don't control.

I'm taking deep breaths and working not to get spun out by maybes and ifs that we can't predict. I have what's in front of me, and goals I've set for this fall and next year and it's about moving forward and making the most of right now and what's coming.

You have already touched so many lives through this thing you created and maintain - that's a legacy right there.
Jul. 27th, 2017 04:32 pm (UTC)
Jul. 27th, 2017 05:18 pm (UTC)
*HUGS back*
Jul. 27th, 2017 05:36 pm (UTC)
Hugs <3's and prayers for you.
Jul. 27th, 2017 07:05 pm (UTC)
*hugs* and thank you. I'll take everything I can get.
Jul. 28th, 2017 05:13 am (UTC)
Jul. 28th, 2017 04:02 pm (UTC)
Thank you. *hugs*
Jul. 31st, 2017 06:58 pm (UTC)
I'm sure hoping you have better news now, but *hugs* in either case.
Jul. 27th, 2017 05:30 pm (UTC)
Well Gary, you have not just touched my life through therealljidol, you've changed my life--you've changed me. Without going into it too deeply, prior to my involvement with Idol, there just wasn't that much in my life to look forward to, but your brainchild has changed that, enormously. And because of the kindness, generosity, and support of you and the other players, I'm not merely excited about what each week will bring, I'm excited about all kinds of things. And my confidence has been growing in leaps and bounds! I've been going out for almost-daily walks, smiling at my neighbours, getting to know some of the guys who work around the complex by sight, waving at and talking to people--carrying all the positivity I find in this precious place into the world.

I wonder now if I was aware of how isolated I'd become. Because it's not just a physical state, isolation goes all the way to the bone. I know that now.

Gary I'm just one sixty-two year old woman, not a hill of beans in this big wide world, but if what you have created could do this for me I am willing to bet you have changed a lot of lives for the better. More lives than you will ever know. Remember that shampoo commercial that went something like "...and you tell two friends and they tell two friends, and so on and so on..."? Well, I think that's what you've done. That's what you created, and kept alive all these years.

That's something. That's really something. Thank you for that.

(Oh, and if you want to know how I lost ninety pounds and have kept it off for two years, I'm happy to share. :-) )

Edited at 2017-07-27 05:38 pm (UTC)
Jul. 31st, 2017 07:00 pm (UTC)
I'm so happy that your life has changed and opened up over these last few years!

You're such a sweet and caring person, and the more people who know that (and let YOU know it), the better. ♥
Jul. 31st, 2017 08:59 pm (UTC)
Thank you SO much! Come from someone as kind and caring as yourself that means a great deal.

<3 <3 <3
Jul. 27th, 2017 07:42 pm (UTC)
I've been thinking a lot about my own mortality lately, because of the recent death in the family and loss of the woman who was the closest thing I had to a mother.

I'm spending my time trying to be happy. I'm doing random dumb stuff with friends, and I'm dating someone who makes me happy. I don't know how much more there is to do, than that.
Jul. 31st, 2017 09:01 pm (UTC)
I'm so sorry for your loss. There is nothing like a loved one lost, or seriously ill to get us examining our lives. Hugs
Jul. 27th, 2017 11:29 pm (UTC)
I dropped out of Season 8 because of a No-Goodnik ruining my life. Since then I've gotten rid of the No-Goodnik, rediscovered my spine, reconfigured my brain, and gotten myself into a good position to adult like a mofo. I've also reconnected with my two best friends, made another friend in Mrs. Storyteller, and was adopted by a cat who decided to fill the hole left when the Dearly Departed Petercat earned his adjectives.

Dayum. I've done a lot in six years.

Edited at 2017-07-27 11:30 pm (UTC)
Jul. 28th, 2017 01:42 am (UTC)
The conductor I frequently work with turned 50 last month. His birthday gift to himself was to organize a big concert at Walt Disney Concert Hall.

There are about 400 of us, and the concert is tomorrow. We have been rehearsing like mad.

Anyway, I say celebrate with reckless abandon when your big 5-0 approaches.

Jul. 28th, 2017 10:26 pm (UTC)
I'm not sure how you wear the bottoms of your trousers (rolled or otherwise), but you've dared something pretty neat, and that's as fine by any peach that I could see.

I don't know that I plan to mark the time, but if I can use it, and then recount it, I'll be fairly happy.

(Also, hi.)

Jul. 31st, 2017 07:04 pm (UTC)
Season 8 was my first season, and the community and opportunity to grow as a writer have both been wonderful.

I do look back and think that in S8, both my kids were still at home, whereas is in college and the other goes this coming year, and that has been really hard. Also, my job was not its current hell.

The time goes far too quickly, in any case, so enjoy this time with your daughter while you can, and don't let the hippies or weirdos keep you from doing what you want to do. :)
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